An insane moment...

Good morning,


I just wanted to take the time to babble. I got to speak to Adrian again last night.. (That is an awesome feeling, knowing that he only seems to be a phone call away...) I was so excited to get to talk to him. Nothing really to talk about other than to hear his voice, and tell him about my day. But something was different... I didn’t get the same amount of energy from him as I usually do. I almost felt like I was bothering him, or as if he other things on his mind. Hopefully this was all part of my imagination. I teared up as we were getting off the phone, I don’t know why.. Someone just pray that God gives me the strength that I need to be there for Adrian. I know that he has so much going on right now and my insecurities are not helping him. So, this is my proposal... that no matter what goes on, if it's not emergent, I will not vent to him. I have others that I can talk to about my day to day activities, and frustrations. (Right?)

Well, that leads me to another topic... friends. Hmmm, who will I call? My new-found friendship is going to be cut short in a month because she is leaving Indiana. So it's like she gets me all excited about going to the gym and how I can look and feel better about myself.. and then no sooner that I join, buy cute little outfits, and brag about going... this silly girl reminds me that she's leaving in a month.. UGH.. (Inside scoop, I should have known... all people leave at some point or another...) Who will I talk to... who will continue to push me into going to the gym? (Even when I’m whining about it) Who will be excited for me when I hear from Adrian? Who can I make fat jokes to when I’m really depressed about everything? I have only one person, and she is leaving me for selfish reasons… LOL... Okay, I’m being a bit selfish to ask her to stay, but without even realizing it she has become a Pearl in my life. Okay enough with all the drama, she is definitely appreciated and will be missed. (As if I wont email her on a regular, or blow countless cell phone minutes keeping in touch...LOL)
So, where do people my age "find" friends? LOL. Maybe I should go to the grocery store and look on the bulletin boards, or get online and post a "wanted" add. maybe Ill start slking friendly looking people until they ask me "Can I help you with something".. LOL.. I mean really, how do adults make friends when they have been in the same city your whole life? Is that something that just comes naturally, or do we search for it. Maybe I’ll just take the next nine months and concentrate solely on my children, my guy and my weight….
Uhm, maybe not... LOL... We will see what happens…

Stay Blessed…